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I've begun to realize how sometimes it is so hard for me to focus on certain things that are quite simple tasks like just watching a short video entirely without taking breaks to pause it or to view something else online. I thought that I just simply should write out what I'm thinking at the moment. I've been thinking about how I've wanted to make a post but yet I don't want to fill it with mindless babble & more of my instagram pictures that most of you have probably already seen. I wanted to write something meaningful perhaps of an experience I've lived recently or about something I've seen/read that has inspired/touched me. I could write about how I haven't finished Rosario+Vampire being that it doesn't really follow a specific plot or story it's all over the place & if you watch any episode in any given order it really doesn't matter that you haven't seen the first.

I could tell you about how I finally reached max bonus at work last month but I don't want to bore you with lurid details about how I finally have good productivity due to a higher call volume & change in my queue. Or maybe I could tell you about how a client called me a bitch last night when I was trying to help her with her frozen bluray player & how she threatened to report me & how I just thought in my head what a silly woman if only she knew that I'm one of the best agents on our floor. Seriously Lady!? I'm still perplexed at why I kept thinking about the situation even after coming home & during my shower not that it affected me in the least but I think it was more the shock of it. Yes mindless work & the crazy customers I have to deal with day in & day out but it pay's the bills & I am content helping others & sharing memories & laughs with my co workers. Even though I'm writing about work I somehow don't feel bothered by it as when I'm home I want to escape that thought you know how they say that you should always leave work at work well just like that but maybe I feel better about this post because it feels more real then posting the crap that I recently purchased which probably holds any real significance is to myself or maybe I'll hate this post after writing it & decide to scrap it later. Maybe I just need this to write mindless babble or real truth to break this ice & tell you how I really don't want to make lunch today because I'm tired or is it because I'm lazy? Almost feels like a chore.

I don't ever like to post anything negative anymore but what am I kidding myself everyone will always feel this way at one point in time & I have accepted that it's not like I'm going to plague you with my current anxiety by telling you this maybe you even prefer this. Right now I want to play Animal Crossing but I also don't want to maybe it's because I stayed up till 4 AM last night playing & maybe that's why I feel so rushed today because of lack of sleep. But hey it's my own fault no one points a gun at my head & tells me what to do & even if they did they couldn't obligate me as I am my own person & make my own decisions. I should really be in the kitchen scrubbing away at last nights dishes, getting the pot ready for spaghetti or macaroni & cheese the two things I prefer to cook when I am feeling this   L A Z Y  and this rushed.